She has been swearing up and down for a couple months that she doesn't want to go. I, personally, am of the opinion that she would end up enjoying it if I made her go. She has no basis to think she wouldn't like it. She's been to concerts before and enjoyed them. So I have absolutely no inkling what has brought this about. Somehow, somewhere, she got some idea in her head (probably something completely inaccurate) that has made her decide this is something to be avoided.

Then, when taking into consideration the fact that I still have to finance the Milwaukee and Denver trips, for which I already have concert tickets, it has become abundantly clear that I will not be able to come up with the money for decent tickets for two people for Dallas. Nosebleed seats? Sure. But, as I've stated before, I see no sense whatsoever in paying a few hundred dollars to go to a concert which you will then have to watch on the jumbotron because you're too far away to see anything.

So with that fact, and with her not even wanting to go, anyway, I came to the conclusion that I should buy just a single ticket and go on my own. Being that I will only have one ticket to buy I should be able to find a pretty good seat, as I did in Denver, and actually be able to afford it. It was very difficult for me to let go of the notion of taking Madalyn. After all, I've been swearing for three years I was going to take her next time Paul came around. But it's just not feasible at this time. If it's between me going without her, or me not going at all, I'm going to go without her (but ONLY since she doesn't want to go, anyway. If she was begging me to go I'd find a way to make it happen). I talked to her about it again tonight to make extra-sure that she would not change her mind at the last minute and, say, start to cry when I walked out the door to head to the concert without her. She claims she won't. We will see when the time comes. I hope she is correct because it will break my heart if she had a change of heart and there was nothing I could do.