So, Robert is out of town overnight. Yeah, yeah, bummer, boohoo and all that crap, and yet: YAY! Because what he did was rent a car for the weekend, leaving me with AN AUTOMOBILE with which I can actually LEAVE THE HOUSE WHENEVER I WANT TO!! I took JZ out running errands this morning and ENJOYED it because it was me! Out of the house! Doing whatever I wanted!

Pathetic.

He will be back around noon tomorrow. I will tag him at the door and jump in the rental car and be off for MY overnight stay. I am staying up in Oklahoma City near my favorite mall and plan to have yummy meals and do a spot of shopping...oh yes, and see my very favorite Beatles tribute band TWICE. (Have I mentioned?) Tomorrow night at 8 is the first show, which I will attend solo. (Please save your pity - I actually like going to concerts by myself more than with other people. I let my hair down a bit more when I'm on my own. ) Sunday Robert and the kids will drive up and meet me for the 3:00 show.

Today is day #5 of doing Weight Watchers and it's going very well. I have gotten back "the spark" that I had the first time I went on WW and was very successful (prior to having JZ). Since JZ was born I have tried numerous times to get back on but have never been able to find that spark I had the first time. In these subsequent tries I resented having to account for everything that went into my mouth and had a litany of "I hate this I hate this I hate this" playing on continuous loop in the back of my mind. This usually resulted in me not even making it through an entire day before I "cheated" or just scrapped the entire program entirely. This time, though, I'm actually kind of enjoying myself. Instead of feeling defeated and sad when I look at my clothes that are a little snug I am now getting excited because it hits me that they will be loose before too long. Perhaps it's just my imagination but I am already feeling less bulky and I swear my fat gut isn't quite so prominent. Also my jeans today felt a little loose but that may have been because it was the second time I was wearing them. We're real class acts around here.

I even led myself into temptation today and came through with flying colors. I took JZ to McDonald's and split a meal with him. I got a taste of what I was craving and I was happy with it. No temptation to snag some of his food or go back and order more. And I also discovered that I can pour a half diet, half regular Coke and it actually tastes acceptable to me and I enjoy it, which is HUGE.

Tonight I am taking the kids down to the restaurant to eat. Also to finagle some cash out of BIL for my trip tomorrow. It's a half-hour drive down there but I am looking forward to it because, again, pathetic no-car person = happy for any excuse to get out of the house. Next month, though....next month we should (tap wood) be able to remedy my sorry situation!

Have a lurvely weekend, everyone