I don't even know what to say except that we got a call this morning from the dealership. The van has to go back. It took them a week to figure out the financing won't go through.

I wish I could say I was surprised but I'm not. I have been extremely cautious about being excited this past week because I've gotten so used to having any even vaguely good thing that happens to us yanked away as soon as we start to get excited about it. This is more of the same. Someday I will sit down and write out a list of all the stuff that's happened to us in the past year to prove I'm not just being melodramatic. I would like to know who's idea of entertainment this is, to keep handing us blessings and then ripping them away. I'm worn down. I've had it. I'm tired of being optimistic and trying to convince myself that there's a reason for everything. Who else does stuff like this happen to? Not many people, I'd wager. What we did to bring this upon ourselves, I can't imagine. I always thought we were pretty decent people.

If this was an isolated incident, by the way, I would be disappointed but would get over it fairly easily. But this is just the most recent in a list as long as my arm of crappy things that've happened to us. Not only did this happen with our car, this is very similar to what happened with our mortgage on the old house. The bank idiot telling us, "Oh, sure, this is no problem! We've got it all wrapped up!" and then we take over the house and it turns out they DIDN'T have it "all taken care of" and our payments will be $500 more a month than we thought because of it. Do we have "Please screw us" tattooed on our foreheads or something? Why the hell would you tell someone something is no problem when you don't know for sure one way or the other? Why would you tell someone they are approved for a mortgage when they weren't yet, and why would you let someone take a car and keep it for a week if you weren't even sure the deal was going to go through?

In closing, a word of caution for anyone in Oklahoma who is reading this: I would definitely NOT recommend Joe Cooper Ford in Midwest City.