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March 11, 2006

2005's ONLY saving grace.

For anyone who's not up to speed: last summer we sold my beloved Toyota 4Runner because we needed part of the money to get caught up on our house payments. We had some money left over and two of the things purchased with it were my tickets to see Paul. Later in the year we decided we couldn't keep it up any longer and put the house on the market and moved to a rental. I am still without a car, 9 months later, and us having only one vehicle has caused us no end of trouble in the interim.

A couple weeks ago I was talking to Robert and I commented that it sucked that we had sold the car and caused ourselves all kinds of inconvenience when we ended up deciding to sell the house, anyway. Robert said, "Well, at least you got a trip to California out of it" (our trip of last summer was also financed by the car sale). At that moment it occurred to me that it was the reason I'd gotten to see Paul, too. I sat and thought about it; about all the trouble it's been, about how lousy it's turned out to be not having a car for three-quarters of a year, about having to bum rides off friends and feeling like a deadbeat, about the stress and aggravation and embarrassment, and you know what?

It was worth it. And I'd do it again.

November 03, 2005

Things to Do in Denver When You're....Not Dead

Author's note: This entry was written when I was in the midst of a pregnancy that would ultimately end due to a blighted ovum. So when I speak about feeling badly in this entry (and in regards to the comments I got on the entry) that is why I felt badly -- it was nausea from the "pregnancy."

Ah, Denver....where to begin? Hey, how about the beginning?

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October 26, 2005

Post-concert, Part One

The longer I sit here trying to organize my thoughts to put forth as a flowery, poetic essay on my concert experience the more I realize such a thing isn't actually going to happen. So, instead, I am just going to touch on whatever happens to pop into my head when I think back to Sunday night.

The evening was very surreal. After three years it was hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that I honest-to-gosh was going to see Paul again. We're talking, right up till the time the curtain swooshed back and Paul came walking out, playing. Right then is when it finally hit me and I narrowly escaped bursting into tears. I had my hand pressed over my mouth and gave a few dry sobs before I pulled it together. For the entire first number ("Magical Mystery Tour" for those playing along at home) all I could do was stand there and stare.

Our seats were just great. We were to the side of the stage; the corner of the stage was pointing directly at us. We were only five rows up in that section, which put us just at stage level. I actually watched Paul the entire time because I could see his face without the help of the t.v. monitors. And what's strange is, I finally saw him as a person -- a real, normal person who does the same things that everyone else does. For once he didn't seem like Paul McCartney, Music Superstar and Entertainment Personality. He just seemed like Paul from Liverpool who was genuinely happy to be doing what he was doing. And I don't mean that I thought he was insincere before or anything. I just mean that, by being close enough to really study him, he didn't seem so much larger-than-life any more. And that's a good thing, in my book. I saw him smiling when he saw someone in the audience doing something funny, saw his attention being diverted as he read the various signs people were holding up, saw him having the same issues with his pants that lots of guys have (Paul, get yourself a belt, son! They make fab ones in faux leather nowadays!) It was just good to see him in that light. I think, at the past concerts, although I was close enough to make out that it was him with the naked eye, I still felt detatched, as though I was watching him on telly. This time I felt like I was actually there, with Paul, the human being, spending time with him.

As for the actual set? Well, gosh, I hate to say, but, right now, I have to give the edge to the '02 tours. Don't get me wrong; it was a lovely concert and I had a fantastic time. It was great to hear the uber-oldie "In Spite of All the Danger" (the very first recording the Beatles ever made). Loved hearing "Too Many People," as well. I just think that, overall, the '02 set list was better. Now, mind you, this is after only seeing him once. When I saw him in '02 the experience just got better each time. I enjoyed the first show but the third was about a thousand times better. We'll see how I feel after the Dallas show.

I was very disappointed at the removal of the song tributes to George and John. This tour they are relegated to a brief pause between songs, where Paul asks the audience to take a moment to remember lost loved ones: John, George and Linda. On the one hand, I understand Paul doesn't want to keep performing "Here Today" and "Something" for the rest of his life, and that you have to switch the show up from tour to tour. On the other hand, I do wish he'd have included something more than just a mere mention.

Another thing that flummoxed me, and I will have to look into this online to make sure I'm not just imaginging things, but I am almost positive I read that he performed "She Loves You" at the beginning of the tour. He did not sing it Sunday night. Perhaps I am just remembering wrongly but if I'm not I wish I could find out why it was taken out. I was very much looking forward to hearing it.

And one last set list note: I just can't get over the squickiness of hearing "I've Got a Feeling" with someone else singing John's parts. Rusty did a fine job, don't get me wrong, but it just doesn't sit right with me. I'm very touchy about John's songs and other people singing them.

Heavens, reading over those last few paragraphs one might think I was dissatisfied with the experience. I must assure you that is most definitely NOT the case! I absolutely adored the show, I'm glad I get to go again, I'm praying I will be able to go to Dallas, and I'd go a hundred more times if I could. It was beyond awesome just to see Paul, let alone getting to spend three whole hours with him. And, in case there are any haters out there, let me emphasize, in case you were doubting: the man most definitely does still R O C K. Hearing him belt out "Helter Skelter" live was one of the coolest. things. ever. I swear to you he sounds just like he did on the White Album, 37 years ago. It's unbelievable. HE is unbelievable. I am less than half his age and putting on ONE concert like that would probably kill me. Forget doing it thirty-something times! Paul is truly amazing and I, once again, am awestruck.

And only five days until I get to do it all over again!

October 18, 2005

Rocky Mountain High

I was honestly beginning to think that, perhaps, my Denver trip would not come off at all. I was waffling back and forth between putting my ticket back on eBay and trying to go. Plane tickets were pricing in the $300 range and my conscience was getting the better of me.

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September 28, 2005

Flying solo in Dallas

A decision has been made that Madalyn will not be attending the Dallas Paul concert with me.

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September 22, 2005

This is what it means to me

This is for all the people who don't understand why I would spend the money I'm willing to spend to see Paul.

Maybe you know about our current financial situation and you can't imagine how I would think it's okay to spend so much on concert tickets. Or maybe you don't have any idea how much we do or don't have in our bank account and you just plain don't see the point in paying such a high price to see a concert -- and then doing it more than once.

Honestly, now that I sit here at the keyboard, I don't know if I even can explain it so you'll understand. Someone asked me recently why I was spending the money and the best I could do was splutter, "But it may be my last chance!" There are lots of "last chances" in the music world, though, and probably most people still wouldn't put forth so much cash to see them. And that's one of the differences right there. It's worth it to me. It matters. I missed John. I missed George. I'll be damned if I'm going to miss Paul, as well. This may be my last shot at being there with Paul, in the very same room, hearing the songs coming from his lips, seeing the very hands that wrote those songs playing them on the piano.

It's not just that it's my last chance, though. Truth be told, even if Paul promised to do another tour, or five, or ten after this one I would still be trying to see him just as many times with just as good of seats.

I am so tempted here to take the easy way out and say "If I have to explain, you wouldn't understand." The funny thing is, that's probably true. I'm not going to make anyone understand why this means so much to me, I think. But not being understood has never stopped me from talking before so I will make the attempt.

I am not just a fan of the Beatles. Fans of musical groups buy some or most of the artist's albums. They know most of the songs but not much of the background of them. They're happy if they can score tickets to a concert but they aren't devastated if they can't. They listen to lots of other artists. Their favorite may even change every so often, depending on who's got the best album out at that particular moment. If that's the kind of music fan you are, if you would get sick of listening to any group if you had to hear them too much, if you can't recognize the singer's voice in two notes of a song you have never even heard before, then you will not understand.

I live the Beatles. They are a part of me, part of who I am. I have people across the country, across the continent, across the globe, people whom I have never met in person and never will, who think of me immediately when they see something Beatles-related. That is how intertwined they are with my life and who I am as a person. When I hear one of the boys' voices coming out of the speakers in a store or a restaurant, the recognition is instantaneous. The reaction in my brain is the same as if you were sitting in a restaurant and heard your mother's or your best friend's voice coming out of the ceiling. It makes me smile every time. If I'm sad, or bored, or stressed, or angry all it takes is a song or a few minutes of video footage and all is well again. The Beatles are my comfort item. If I have managed to go several days without watching them or listening to them, I start to miss them, as though they were actually here and have gone away.

That's the best I can do right now. I don't know how else to explain it. And I definitely can't ask anyone to understand. All I can say is this is not "just a concert." I'm not going because I think Paul "is cool and I like the Beatles, too." Going to see Paul again means the world to me. It means more than any trip or any tangible thing I could buy. It means more than a hundred dollars or a thousand dollars. I have had a rough couple of years, here. The last time I saw Paul ranks in the top five best nights of my life and I have been praying ever since that he would come around again. There is no way I could not go see him. It would be completely unfathomable. Not going to see him was not an option, period. And I think that, after the crap time we've had lately, I deserve it. My children are not suffering for the money I've spent. I am not taking away food, housing, clothing, schooling, or even toys from them to make this possible.

Some might also question the wisdom of spending money to take a five-year-old to one of the concerts. Well, this child loves Paul like I do. She was only eighteen months old when I went to pick her up from my in-laws' house after returning from one of Paul's concerts. Eighteen months old, and when she saw me coming, wearing the concert t-shirt, she called out, "Paul!" I made a promise to myself, right there and then, that if Paul toured again Madalyn would come with me to one of the concerts. This might be my last shot, but it might be her only shot at seeing him. So we are going, come hell or high water. That is the one concert I don't have tickets for yet but we will find a way. Even if she only retains the memory of one snippet of one song, that will be enough for me. It's something I will remember for the rest of my life.

And that's all I have to say.

September 18, 2005

Lest you think I have forgotten

I must take a moment to express my current state of mind: OhmigodIonlyhave34daystillIseePaulwhatthehellamIgoingtowearohcrapIwas-
supposedtolose50poundsbynowohwellIgettoseePaulSQUEEEEEEE!

Thank you.

(The tour started this past Friday, babies! He has today and tomorrow off then will be in Atlanta on the 20th. Rock on, you lucky Atlantans!)

July 24, 2005

12 weeks and counting

May I take another moment to point out that there are now only three months until the first of the Paul concerts?

Thanks (again).

June 10, 2005

Change of plans

Madalyn won't be going to Milwaukee with me, after all. Robert had a minor anuerysm when he found out not only how much I paid for the Milwaukee tickets but that I was also still planning to go to Dallas. After he recovered, though, he decided he didn't mind so much and also agreed that it wasn't fair for me to un-invite my friend, Dave, who had initially expressed an interest in going with me. So the original plan is back on: I take Madalyn to Dallas and Dave goes with me in Milwaukee.

A large part of Robert's recovery can be attributed to Dave, who totally ROCKS, by the way, and who is going to pay me back for the entire half of the purchase price even though he knows he doesn't have to and I didn't expect it. Also contributing to Dave's awesomeness is the fact that he is going to let me stay at his place and also chauffer me around town which will keep my expenses to a minimum. Basically I just need a plane ticket and food/t-shirt money. I need to find out if Judaism has anything equivalent to sainthood because I'm totally going to nominate Dave for it if it does.

(Also, in case anyone wondered: I do have other things to talk about besides my concert plans. It's just that, after a week of Vacation Bible School shepherding, I have exactly two functioning brain cells remaining. One is entirely focused on the concerts and the other is repeating, "Must. Sleep. Go. Lie. Down." on a continuous loop. And since there's not much to write about napping, I'm writing about the other thing. Hopefully a nice lie-in tomorrow will bring the higher functions back to normal capacity.)

June 08, 2005

Two dates and counting

Add another one to the schedule, boys and girls:

Milwaukee, October 23rd -- Section 225; Row E.

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June 07, 2005

Spending my anniversary with.....

11.

It's a beautiful number.

Let's all ponder it for a moment: 11.

Why, you might ask?

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April 30, 2005

Cancel that last entry

I got tickets. It involved me, a scalper, Ebay, and about $200 more than I would've spent if I'd gotten them at face value. But I have them. And now I'm completely worn out. Talk about an emotional wringer. The tickets are pretty good and I will post more about it later. Right now I'm going to go lie down or something.

So much for that

I entered my first request for tickets at 10:04 (went on sale at 10) and I could not get anything. Apparently no one else could, either, judging by the thread on the McCartney forums. Which begs the question: if they didn't sell the tickets to the general public in the "general public sale" then where the hell did they go? I've tried upwards of fifty times and the two times tickets came up they were bad seats and not worth the money. Now all that's left is ticket brokers, scalpers and Ebay, for those who have available credit lines or lots of cash, or, for people like me, who could barely scrape together enough for tickets at face value, it's the end of the line. Oh, sure, I could probably find some upper-level tickets from a broker for the amount of money I have. But I'm not spending five hundred dollars to watch a stupid concert on a stupid Jumbotron.

So, thanks a lot, Paul and all who were involved in this brilliant decision-making process. Glad all the corporate bigwigs and radio stations and rich people were able to get their tickets. You must have had half the arena reserved for them because there were people who were on at 10:00, exactly, and couldn't get tickets. I didn't realize I'd have to have superhuman powers to secure tickets. Thanks for wasting my time. Hope you have a good tour.

April 29, 2005

Please pardon the momentary freak-out

Just having a mini-panic attack over buying the Paul tickets tomorrow. What if I can't get good seats? I am hoping for seats at least as good as the ones I got last time, if not better. I keep thinking, though, what if the first ones I pull up aren't that great? Do I buy them anyway? Or do I take a huge risk and throw them back and try again? Most of his shows are selling out in about half an hour. Now, I will be specifically requesting the best available $250 seats, which does keep me out of the upper levels (I think). And Ticketmaster.com is the way I got the seats last time so I do have a good chance, I think, of doing at least as well this time. I don't know, I'm just freaking. I am going to be devastated if we are so far away that we can't even tell it's Paul. I mean, why would I pay 500 bucks for to watch a concert on the Jumbotron? It's important to me to be close enough to actually see him because you never know if this will be my last chance. Who knows when he will retire? This could be his last tour! And I want Madalyn to be able to look at him and see that, indeed, that is Paul and not just some indiscernible blob with a guitar.

I guess if I am really unhappy with the seats we get I can keep an eye on Ebay for better ones between now and then, and maybe do some kind of swap, buying a new set and then selling the other ones. Hopefully that is a decision I won't be faced with.

Okay, breathe....breathe....certainly after this past year fate owes me a good turn....

April 27, 2005

Oh by the way

Have I mentioned I'm going to see Paul McCartney? Really? Because I could totally say it again.

Tickets go on sale in under 59 hours, people. Come Saturday morning it's me at the computer, Mastercard in one hand, seating chart in the other. Ticketmonster had better be good to me.

(Added bonus: I probably won't mention the subject again for a good five months after the tickets have been purchased. Till then, give me a break, it's all I've got going for me right now.)

April 18, 2005

I have the info and it's official

The official Paul McCartney tour dates were announced today.

Naturally, the announcement comes one day after I spent most of the money in my Paypal account at the Galleria in Dallas. *sigh*

However, according to Ticketmaster, the Dallas show does not go on sale until the 30th. So we have almost two full weeks to scrabble together enough money for two tickets.

As thrilled as I am over this development, I am also exceedingly disappointed. Paul will NOT be coming back to Oklahoma City. No, he has decided, instead, that stops in Des Moines and Omaha are necessary. Let me repeat that. O. ma. ha.

Between that and "Uncle Albert/Admiral Halsey" I have given up ever trying to figure out what goes on in that man's head.

Robert and I have been talking, though, and we have a plan. It is thus: I will only be buying tickets for the Dallas show immediately. Then, as the summer and, hopefully, our financial situation progress we will try to plan for me to see Paul in some other city. Possibilities include Vegas (very large pie in the sky -- that will only happen if things improve dramatically) or perhaps Milwaukee (never been to Wisconsin before) or who knows where else.

Now to begin the countdown to November....

April 12, 2005

Paul is making me prematurely gray

And, snap, just like that, the information I got a few days ago has been rescinded. "They" (whoever "they" may be) are now claiming Paul will be somewhere totally different on those days, Houston and Dallas are still up in the air....and STILL no official announcement on the tour schedule or when we might expect tickets to be on sale.

*Sigh* If it was anyone else, Paul, I'd have thrown up my hands in disgust and sworn off seeing them, just on principle!

April 08, 2005

Breathe deeply into this paper bag

Last night I got word that the Dallas concert date for Paul McCartney is confirmed and that tickets go on sale on the 16th -- and then had a mini-breakdown when I realized that I really, truly am going to see Paul again. I'd have been okay with just getting the information but then "Maybe I'm Amazed" came up on the playlist I was listening to and I lost it, briefly.

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